He will provide.

Tough day. :|
But, God is amazing. And prayers, reading the Bible, combined with listening to music about Him just really makes me remember what's important in life.

It's so easy to get distracted. We were having this talk in our FCA leader meeting today. It's like, there's so many things that we put before God. But we have to realize it's HIS will for us, not ours. And that He keeps us close to Him because He loves us and He really does keep our best interest in mind. I was reading the Bible today and I came across Matthew 16:8-10. The Disciples were talking to each other about having no bread then, "Aware of their discussion, Jesus asked, "You of little faith, why are you talking among yourselves about having no bread? Do you still not understand? Don't you remember the five loaves for the five thousand, and how many basketfuls you gathered? Or the seven loaves for the four thousand, and how many basketfuls you gathered?" Jesus was referring to the multiple times that He had provided for the Disciples and thousands of people and fed them with only a few loaves of bread. Even though Jesus had done this twice, the Disciples were still incredulous and unsure of what to do.

And it's like this: we, as Christians, should know that God takes care of us. However, we STILL freak out and try control things or do stuff our way. We do this even though God shows us over and over and over again that He's in control and will provide for us. And I write this saying "we" because I know we all have, but I'm really talking to myself here. Today I was in total hyperventilating/wanting to cry/stunned silent freak out mode. I asked my friend to pray for me and not too long after, it dawned on me.

This is a little life I have. It's a vapor. I don't want to waste it being worried about stupid things. I want to spend it looking towards God and His glory and having His love reflect from me. I want the world to know the joy I have found in Him. I want them to know that he provides hope, love, and a home. That He can take any past and make it new. And I know I won't be perfect with this by the end of today. However, it's one more small step on this beautiful journey I'm on.

I know He's holding on to me.
I know He's watching me.
I know He cares for me.
And I know He loves me.

Amen.